Hey there Beautiful,
There, I’ve said it.
This year has made me so tired.
I’m saying, I’m tired, because I think you are too and I wanted you to know that YOU are not alone.
And here comes encouragement . . .
I feel like everyone needs a bit of extra encouragement and I wanted to be that voice for you.
This year could be making you feel anxious, scared, angry, disgusted, and confused with a huge helping of uncertainty.
We’ve all gotten so used to waiting for the next bad thing to occur that when it does, we say, “Yep there it is.”
It’s hard to get out of the mindset of negativity, constantly looking for the other shoe to drop.
I know because I’ve been in this headspace for a few months and I’m trying slowly to get out of it.
I wanted to share that with you because I’m guessing that you think I have it all together, especially when you hear my voice speak to you through this podcast.
But trust me, NO ONE has it all together.
I don’t care how polished the photo looks on Instagram, no one has it all together.
I'm officially in outrage overload.
We are also becoming immune to events that are in a “normal” year we would be outraged.
I am definitely experiencing outrage overload.
My supply of concern cannot keep up with the demand.
The small world of my family and friends that I’ve fiercely protected for years is now even more directly impacted by the bigger world’s problems.
Decisions that would have been easy in previous years are now monumental.
Being comfortable with routine tasks now require extra work and constant vigilance.
I go from one extreme to the other. And that's okay.
Being happy, at peace, and normalizing my sanity are high on my priority list.
So I’ve snoozed friends on Facebook because I can’t take their negativity anymore.
I’m really being careful how much social media and TV that I’m exposed to and choosing shows that have lots of silliness and humor. Humor is definitely helping me.
I’ve cried in the shower when it’s gotten to be too much and read entire books in one day in order to help my brain escape.
I’ve furiously cleaned my house one weekend and the next weekend said, “Nope not going to clean. Going to sit on the couch and do nothing.”
I’ve skipped days to go to the gym and I’ve gone seven days in a row when I’ve needed to do something physical when I’ve wanted to beat back the feelings of being overwhelmed.
I’ve stayed up waaaay too late and I’ve gone to bed early.
I’ve shouted the lyrics of NWA around my living room and I’ve listened to meditation sounds to help calm my breathing.
I’ve journaled my feelings and frustrations out in my notebook and I’ve talked to my husband and my mom when commiseration was needed from someone I love.
I’ve eaten too much and . . . no, that’s it.
There’s nothing to compare there.
I’ve eaten too much of my feelings in the last few months. But I am determined to do better, even if I have to start over every single day.
You are not alone.
I’m telling you this because I want you to not feel alone in all the feelings that you're having and the actions that you are or are not taking due to those feelings.
We all can stumble down the staircase to the depths of despair so easily.
It takes work to lift one foot after another to climb up those same stairs to reach the level we call normal.
And it takes even more energy to choose to be happy and resist stumbling back down those same stairs.
Asking for help is NEVER a sign of weakness.
Just be aware of how you’re feeling and let it roll through you. If you want to be in a funk, be in a funk.
If you want to be quiet for a few hours in a day, then be quiet for a few hours.
Do what you can for yourself to keep going.
But if you think you’ve been rolling around in the same feelings for too long then please seek help from someone you know and trust whether that be a spouse, friend, or a professional.
Asking for help is NOT a sign of weakness.
So yes, I'm tired. But I'm going to keep smiling.
So, yes, I’m tired just like you.
But I’m also a strong woman who will keep going no matter what.
And YOU are too.
We’ve proven that to ourselves time and time again in the years that occurred BEFORE 2020 so this year will not defeat or break us.
I know that I’m going to learn something about myself and 2020 but I don’t know what it is yet (which of course drives the control freak in me up the wall.)
We will get through this even stronger so keep going.
Keep loving those who love you.
Keep doing the things that make you happy.
Keep smiling and don’t give up.
I’ll talk to you later Beautiful!
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